I Love Him More Than I Love Myself. Describe.

Bismillah.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. 

I Love Him More Than I Love Myself. Describe.

Tajuk entry ini corny sangat-sangat for those who never even been in love with an ajnabi. 

Well, it can be said that i don't expect myself to be in a love state while studying, since i have goals that i need to accomplish and think i alone can do it. Plus, it was more surprising to me that being liked or loved by someone, actually can drive you insane. This had happened to me.

Why is it insane? Of course it is, if you are in this situation and apparently none of them are actually qualified. In this state, definitely, you can turn them down but please do it in a polite way possible. You need to appreciate them for liking you and also advice them that there are still flowers waiting to be asked. That is exactly what i did. And, two out of three of them, actually are taken right now.

BUT! I never turned down/rejected the guy that i currently in love with! 

I have my eyes set on him from the first day we met. It was on 15 Nov 2013, when he came to my Uni for a programme organized by Sekretariat Rukun Negara USM. He is an Alumni from KUIS, so everyone knows him. My eyes set on him because he is kinda have a good look and he is very very very charismatic. He has his own charm. Plus, he can make people laugh. 

He didn't realize my presence because i worked behind the face of the programme. I was in charge for Food and Beverages and normally, people don't look at the person behind a food counter. He said, he only truly saw me during our programme in an orphanage at Banting, Selangor. He decided to greet me by saying, " Yana nampak cantik malam ni." Anddd, i was taken aback because to me he was a total stranger and stranger does not "puji" people. And, my respond was AWKWARD!!! HAHAHA. Whatever.

It was actually a strange greet to begin with but it did not matter because the strange greet would invite another greet. It was actually an effort to get to know someone. So, men out there, DO NOT FEAR! Have courage because you got nothing to lose by saying a simple greet. So, we did another greet thru facebook. And it kind of excites me. Well, because of he had all the criterias of a man that i was looking for. However, it didn't overwhelm me too much since he was a friend and a senior.

Time flew and we were still in contact. I grew interest but not that much. Still not much progress because i wasn't ready for a relationship and i didn't want it to be in that way. Even tho he didn't say it but I can sense that he liked me. He maybe thought me as one of his crush and i was right. HAHA. So, before he confess, i thought that i should stop giving him hopes even tho i have already liked him. 

Here, comes my friend as go-between to drift us apart. And we succeeded. He actually really "terasa" with the way i did it to him and for that, sayang, i am truly sorry until now. I was still not mature and incapable of handling that kind of situation. The situation, whereby i need to, kind of shut someone that i liked and i didn't want to hurt him. It was totally different situation with the one i have mentioned above.  So i sorted out to that solution. He accepted it and sent whatsapp to me that he was sorry for all the troubles he'd caused. Actually, it was heart throbbing to read his words and i, unconsciously uninstalled the app. He kept silent for one whole semester, hold tight to his word that he won't budge me again.

My mother knew all of this story. I started to tell her my story ever since in USM. My mother is always fond of him even before she met him. And i actually knew the reason. It was because he is a Law degree holder. We are easily attracted to an educated person, right. When we "putus kawan", my mother asked me why i did that and i told her that i don't like him. And i really can't be honest to her for this matter. It was really an embarrassing things to say. 

After that, we were in contact again when my mother asked me to invite him to my sis's wedding. From that moment, things went back to normal and we progress a little bit because our relationship's term was not "friend" from the start. HAHA. Long story cut short, he finally confessed after touch down in Subang from Penang. He was so sure to confess even tho i can hear his shaky voice clearly. I didn't mentioned it to him because i didn't want him to be even more nervous. He gathered his courages and i respect him for doing that. Of course i accept him. I believe that loves can be learnt and obtained thru times. And until now, i love him and i will forever, InsyaAllah.

All things that had happened and will happen are to be bound by His willing.

Industrial Visit di Perniagaan Mudim Zakaria

 That are the products of Perniagaan Mudim Zakaria. Source: Google

Bismillah.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Yeay, i really cherished my visit this time. Years ago, i went to kilang kicap tamin, but i vaguely remembered it all. Well, it was ages ago and can say that the memory is lost. 

This industrial visit is not suka-suka because the given mark is 10%. So, we were working hard for this (except me la hahaha). 

We've done a lot of company searching thru google-of course andd taraaa!! Mudim's on the list since they have fermentors and downstream processes. First, we call them, tell them, hear the answer and set a date and time. That's all. Easy. Simple. Period.

Mudim is in Pendang, and we are in Penang. None of us own a car so we need to collect money to rent cars and pay gases. Our appointment was at 3.00 PM but we reached there at quarter to 12PM and It was way too early than i expected. You know, because my friend drove like Toretto or O'Brien. Padahal, both of them pon memandu dalam green screen je hahaha! Seriously, i felt like i was dead already by the first 15 minutes the car motioning. That is the worst experience i've ever felt sitting in a car. 

View from outside. Very spacous area, enough to park 5 to 6 cars. 

Main entrance.

 At 2.50PM, we reached Mudim's Office and into their conference room (maybe). I was really impressed. Never thought that they would have such well-design, comfortable and well-ventilated room for visitors. Their company is still enterprise yet they are developing well. The surroundings are really clean and no stinky smells at all.

Just outside of conference room. My teammates. 

We were briefed about the company by En. Hakim. He is one of the strongest person in the organisation. After the briefing, he is open to be asked questions. We kept asking questions regarding the kicap and vinegar's production method. However, the method is private and confidential. So, whenever we asked questions regarding production, most of it are the same answer. We were so upset and decided to just keep quiet and only ask once we were in the production site. Then, to our surprise, we cannot visit the site! Oh my God! How are we suppose to make a report on this? It is impossible to create your own calculation for real process!We need to have calculations in report. 

Without any doubt, our hopes to submit report as early as possible were crushed that instant. All of us 'sangat kecewa' that day. After the session ended, we took pictures with the representative and dashed out of the conference room. We were given souvenirs, which are Kicap Istimewa and Sos Cili Pedas. Both of it really have a great taste. I kinda like it. The sos cili pedas is balance, it suits my tongue because i can't withstand too much spicyness. I can get diarrhea all day already if the spicyness same as 'sambal pecal' at Desa Restu. 

I love their products and also the bag. It is thick and not easily crumpled!

Working experience at Auntie Anne's QB outlet

Bismillah.

Source: Google. 

Okay. Auntie Anne's.That was my first official work. The other two jobs before Auntie Anne's didn't need me to fill up any kind of application form because i was working with my own relative at a food stall in Muar, Johor and a clothing store at Jitra. These 3 jobs, i was working as a part time.

People said that i am unpredictable and i asked myself, why did they say that ?
To my surprise, i also found out that i cannot predict my own self.
My classmate and I were just finished our classes and we went to QB Mall since it is nearby.
Actually, i craved for stix eclairs and went there to buy, but what had happened next was totally unpredictable.

I applied for the job when i saw a vacancy ads at Auntie Anne's kiosk. I have been my utmost aim to work and i had thought it over and over for almost  two semesters. So, when this chance came, i just don't want to let it go. That day, i have given my confirmation with the manager (Kak Wahida) and she asked me to work starting tomorrow (Sunday). FYI, part-timer needs to wear black pants, black/white shirt and black/white tudung.

On the first day, i was working for 5 hours on Sunday, so you can imagine how tiring it can be but it doesn't matter, experience is what i need. The first day, it was hectic to me because i need to serve customers and also learn so many things at the same time. After few days, i was getting hang on it and working there was real fun! All the workers are easy going and friendly. They are kak Wawa (manager), kak Shu, kak Amalina, Maldal and Ram (both are Nepalese).

My job specs are serving customers, cashier, cleaner, dish washer and etc. Basically, i did everything that other workers did. However, i didn't get the chance to roll pretzel because i was newbie and my working hour didn't allowed me to learn that. During weekday, i have class and i can only work from 8pm until 10pm. For weekend, i got 6 hours shift but it was not a good day to learn to roll dough since it is sunday and mall is penangite's fav destination.

Rumors uproar that these pretzels is not halal, but guys, don't worry, I have go through all of their stocks and everything got halal label on their packages. You see, the best thing that ever happened working there is you can eat anything you want for free! I have tried a lot! That include jumbodog cheese, dogbites cheese, stix eclairs and cinnamon, pretzel caramel almond, jalapeno cheese, cheezy turkey, cinnamon, garlic, sour cream & onion, eclairs, seeweed, parmesan cheese. Phewww! That is a lot!

Source: Google. Menu with old prices before GST

Source: Google. Pretty much same with QB outlet. 

I only managed to work for 12 days. This semester got no lab at all but the busyness almost similar to previous semesters. Plus, my mother worried about my studies and my motorcycle got no road tax. HAHAHA. So, i decided to resign starting 1st October and my manager was okay with it. On my last day, she said that i can come back anytime i want. Well, i will come back. The pay is good and food is free.

***Foot note***
Excuse my broken English and don't get irritated with the language, i am practicing for my IOP next week.

IOP - Individual Oral Presentation